Thursday, February 10, 2011


Che (elder sister in Hokkien) is gone again. There seems to be too many departures in the past few years. But with every departure, I've learnt that there is a returning , a reunion, the happy act of coming together again, and there is a better appreciation of the one who was gone for a little while.

A month seems long. Six months seem longer. A couple years, even longer. But the truth is, life's momentum is so fast, and with moments slipping through our fingers all the time and never coming alive again--other than in our memories--few months are really a short while. Life itself is already a temporary affair, a tiny dot of matter compared to the eternity we'll get to live in heaven. What less a fraction of a lifetime?

I've come to terms with the awareness that separation cannot be separated from life. Separation from family. Separation from a childhood friend. Separation from the familiar things in life. Separation from things I would rather not lose. At those moments of separation, I had cried, felt utterly lost, overcome by melancholy and anger. I had convinced myself that life sucked. But I have also moved on, observed things in a different light and toughened up.

Che's long term absence in Malaysia for the first time will be quite hard on our family; at first, at least. Unlike the couple years when her job was based in Singapore, she wouldn't be able to take an hour flight back home anymore. We would no longer be seeing her two or three times a month. This time, it's two or three times a year. Suddenly, Shanghai seems so far away. I'm still not fully comprehending the effects of not seeing her long term. However, no matter how big a change this will be for me, I know it's an even more frightening experience of uncertainty for Che. Even though she is not alone as she is leading a new life with her husband this time, I saw how especially hard the departure was for her through the bucketful of tears that she shed when we sent Jeremy and her off at KLIA two nights ago. I guess we can never get too used to going far away from home.

But she'll eventually get used to Shanghai. She may even fall in love with the place. And we will get used to life without her physical presence. It will not take long before they return home and we adapt to a new change all over again. Who knows, it may then be my turn to separate from home.

And life goes on.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Summing It All Up

It's so hard to stay committed to doing anything, I admit. =P

Another year has gone, and so has the first month of the new one. Considering it's only been just a month, I've had quite an eventful and meaningful start to year 2011. In the span of this one month, I've gone to Cameron Highlands with my immediate and extended families, conquered one more finals (woohoo!)--my second one in college, gone to Malacca for a class trip the day after our last paper, gone to Malacca again the day after class trip for a Christian Fellowship committee planning retreat, and gone to Singapore with my two beloved sisters. Four trips in a month with mostly different people; not bad a personal achievement for someone who tends to waste time like me, eh. =)

I thought some pictures would be good treatment for the eyes, but since I haven't been using my own camera for ages, I have to totally depend on photos fished from facebook. Family pictures are all taken from my sis, Pamela. Class trip pictures are from Yi Shu's album. See, I credit others rightfully. Don't sue me.

At Cameron Highlands:

My lovely family
Steamboat. Perfect dinner for a cold evening. Yes, I'm aware that I didn't act very pretty here. It was a candid shot.
The See (Mom's generation) and the Soo (my generation) sisters.
What I love about the trip: we were all incurable camera hoggers.

In Malacca with DJR1 class:

Me, Tricia and Sukh in front. The boys at the back.
This is a rabbit year after all.
The DJR1 (minus the five girls that couldn't make it for the trip).

No pictures of CPR because I couldn't find any on facebook yet.
But it was fun getting to know the committee and a new experience learning a lot from this retreat and all the really mature people that were there =) Got an overdose of Malacca too.

Sisters in Singapore:
We visited Universal Studios Singapore! And of course it was a bunch of fun. Love the decor. Love the food. Love the people. And definitely love the fun and memory.

I was aware that I was suppose to face the opposite direction--after this picture was taken. Blame it on Betty Boop for giving me bad instruction.
With the fierce Egyptian mummy. No, I don't think he was a mummy. Maybe just a guard or servant or know...the type forced to drag hundreds of bricks that weighed a ton each every day? Never mind.

Of course, we did a lot of shopping too. What's a trip to the Lion City without some retail therapy?

I'm so excited that Chinese new year eve is tomorrow! Time to ready my hands for ang pows and glorious foods.